[repost from my other journal. written yesterday]

last few days have been kind of stressful.. i found out on tuesday (though it may have been yesterday) that one grandma has a non-cancerous tumor on her spine. but, she has to get it removed or else she's paralyzed. and even when she does get it removed, there's still a 10% chance she'll be paralyzed. my other grandma lives in Texas, right on the coast (her house is maybe 100feet from the water). she finally evacuated earlier today, but mom and i don't feel it was far enough. she went to a city about 40 miles inland. we tried to convince her to go to at least either san antonio or austin. on tuesday, my aunt in north carolina even tried to convince my grandma to let her drive down and pick her up, but she wouldn't.

and i just start crying all the time because i can't do anything to help either grandma.

i don't like feeling useless...