so. hello. you know, i really want this week over with. like right now. i don't care if friday is two days away. i just want to skip today and tomorrow. today is my presentation in my humanites class. and. i jsut have this fear that pamela will forget for some reason and not show up. and that would suck because its a 20 minutes presentation. i don't even like takling in front of a group of people for 3 minutes. so. she'll show up. just keep telling myself that. and. she's bringing her violin and playing. for. i think she said 5 to 7 minutes. and she talks alot, so i really don't have to do stuff. unless she doesn't show up, then i'm screwed. and i don't know her phone number. and it isn't in the phone book.

and i have a presentation tomorrow in shakespeare. actually it was due yesterday. but. i didn't get it done in time for class. so i didn't go. but i wrote matt an e-mail saying i was sick (which i was) from the food saturday. and my final is due tomorrow.

tomorrow at 9pm i'll be happy. both presentations will be over. and i'll stop spazing.

spazing is something i do quite well in case you never noticed.

my youngest step-cousin's birthday is this weekend. she'll be 1. a few weeks ago, i was at greg's (a cousin) open house. and. i saw catherine and audrey there. i haven't seen them in 7 years. they've grown up so much. and catherine has a son. laura graduated this year too. and. i just feel so old. i still remember years ago when we had a bog ol' water gun fight. and played in the cornfield. and the parties every year at christmas at grandpa's house. now. four of us have graduated. and we see each other less and less.

we were all together the day before easter. except for my brother. and we all sat on the staircase at greg's. the 7 of us. and our picture was taken. same thing 7 years ago. compare the two pictures. every one is so grown up. and going off to college.

and. i'm the "black sheep" of the family. but. i like it. it's just. i'm so different from my cousins. when we were all together this year, we went to the mall and Best Buy. they all were abercrombie and stuff. and i'm wearing a workshirt and pants from goodwill. and a Kittie t-shirt. spikey bracelet.

and. i'm all dyked out with my lesbian haircut.

but. i'm the black sheep. doing my own things. watch me march to my own accordian.

baa.

.wigglestick.